I will be working to unload my pictures off my phone today so I can be ready to take pictures of this house with no excuse of having a full memory card and then post them here as I work to get rid of 10 things a week, straighten up and maintain daily, use what I have to make sense of the things I use daily and make them more accessible and worth keeping. I will take my DHA to help my mind stay clearer and help me stay on task and remember what I set out to do here in these writings.

Its been so long since I've blogged. Today is a new day and the time passed to get to today has allowed new discoveries along the way. Today I am dealing with the thoughts of people coming into my house and helping me get organized. I don't know what day they will come but it will be someday soon and I will see a therapist again and get a break from the kids to talk to God when I make it more of a priority. All of this came about through a group I am in at my church. A WOW meeting, we have been studying on how to see our husbands as our heroes. Last meet my desire for help toward change really took presence and the woman showed great interest in helping me carry this burden and not feel so isolated and loosing belief in myself of ever achieving the goals to get to the end of all this very literal stuff clouding up my life. I am grateful and looking forward to the help in the midst of doubt and uncertainty. I am asking them to pray for me and for the spiritual battle within as this crutch is forced out and not allowed to have reign in my life anymore. What a delivery of new life it will bring. All I have to do is completely surrender. There are all kinds of things that bind us to a certain roll we play in this life we live. In order to live in the light we only dream about, we first have to look at where we live now and then take real and often painful steps through all the mess to conquer our greatest need for new beauty.

Its so difficult to blog being a mother of young children. I thought I would of made at least one entry since my last by now! oh well, my new motto, "slow and steady wins the race". My days between have been successful as I gained new open spaces and "finished" spaces in my bathroom and even that dreaded couch area. Maintaining the kitchen and the spaces I have set already and keeping up with the kids and the husband and doing my best to keep the animals fed and watered. I am unable to write more at this time even as I have to go be wife and mom, never off are we, always on with a plenty to keep us going. Here's to new blog entries in the future! Or at least that is my hope! Haha! I hope to update with pics soon.

And with some energies left achieved the third space.

Gaining motivation in the first success, I was encouraged to move on and gained my second success.

It took me an hour to get going... I had to make a run to the local Mini to get some recharging drinks and munchies! Once I did get started, I achieved one small success in one small counter space.

This past weekend I was given some free time away from children and wondering questioning little yankings on my shirt... I missed my children but I was glad to get some spaces cleaned.

This blog is for my dear friends and anyone wanting to walk along with a young hoarder of material things as I search new ways to better this situation and continue to trust God and the work He has started in me and how He works in and through me in this on a daily, weekly, monthly... basis. Thank you for being a part of my life and being willing to go down the ugly with me and not send judgments and condemnation on me!! I love you dearly and appreciate your dedication and your impute!