PART ONE My ROAD To Becoming a better housewife and home maker. And so, I have learned many things in the last years of great effort why I can not keep a clean house. I have soaked up as much information as I could and sought to apply it as best I as I could. I STILL live in a messy house. Can nothing be done? No, I will not conclude this. As I have been learning about housework, I have also been learning about the mind and how it effects life, I have learned about circumstances and surroundings also and how they affect life, I sought reason for the madness of living in chaos and the why's so that I can in hope find the answers and in tern the remedy to apply. You see in my mind, I see a very VERY put together home. Everything in its place and completely within grasp of when you need it, clean, usable, unbroken, pieces all together, etc. In my mind, I can not understand why these things should not be attainable for me. It seems so easy, and so I press on every day starting with my head held high... but soon, I find myself in an overwhelmed state and failure and guilt ridicule me. I get depressed, my feet get heavy, my mind gets cluttered, my breathe shortened. Anxiety sets in, worry, heartbreak. This is just trying to keep house, I am not mentioning being married, being a mother to THREE young children, being a STEP mother to one TEENager, and the list goes on!!!

Making Needed Changes and writing them down to not forget!

Changes are good. Doesn't mean they are easy though. 1. Write more. I don't seem to know how to communicate my thoughts in audible words the way I do in writing them down. 2. Read out loud my writings to Matt. If he isn't going to read them on his own and I am going to get hurt about it, then just make the decision to not undermine him for not taking interest and instead read him what I write or even print him a copy to read on his own. 3.

Hello again. It didn't happen. I made promises on here I didn't keep. I was unable thus far to get rid of anything. Good intentions are just that when there is no action to follow suit. I was embarrassed to write. Time heals the hurting heart. God gives new strength. Here we go again. Phil. 4:13