PART ONE My ROAD To Becoming a better housewife and home maker. And so, I have learned many things in the last years of great effort why I can not keep a clean house. I have soaked up as much information as I could and sought to apply it as best I as I could. I STILL live in a messy house. Can nothing be done? No, I will not conclude this. As I have been learning about housework, I have also been learning about the mind and how it effects life, I have learned about circumstances and surroundings also and how they affect life, I sought reason for the madness of living in chaos and the why's so that I can in hope find the answers and in tern the remedy to apply. You see in my mind, I see a very VERY put together home. Everything in its place and completely within grasp of when you need it, clean, usable, unbroken, pieces all together, etc. In my mind, I can not understand why these things should not be attainable for me. It seems so easy, and so I press on every day starting with my head held high... but soon, I find myself in an overwhelmed state and failure and guilt ridicule me. I get depressed, my feet get heavy, my mind gets cluttered, my breathe shortened. Anxiety sets in, worry, heartbreak. This is just trying to keep house, I am not mentioning being married, being a mother to THREE young children, being a STEP mother to one TEENager, and the list goes on!!!